Who You Are

I bought a necklace on Etsy, and wore it everyday. It was a Meme that said, “Life doesn’t sparkle unless you do.” The finish started peeling off from the wear.

I found this one today, and purchased it immediately.

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I was looking for this quote, and found the necklace.

That is the same way I found the other necklace. Just out of curiosity. Is it a Meme, or a necklace? It’s both. I’m excited to give my other one a much needed rest.

I’m learning about stillness. It is hard to find complete stillness. To sit still, or have alone time is one thing, but to tune into your surroundings and everything is completely still, at the same moment?

It’s a magical moment to find out who you really are.

I Killed It

My daughter started with succulents. That was easy because you can get away with ignoring those.

Then she suggested Boston Ferns for the front porch this year. That was scary. You see, I tend to over care. They have always looked intimidating. How could something that beautiful be easy to care for?

They are easy, so I gained confidence, and bought an indoor plant. At the time, it spoke to me for two reasons. It looked the way I felt inside, and it was $2.00. If I killed it, it was not a large investment.

It was going in my bedroom, which was kept cool, and dim. It doesn’t receive a lot of natural light, unless the drapes are opened. They weren’t opened very wide at the time, if at all. We enjoyed the dark.

After about a week, I noticed the plant was loosing it’s rich green color. It wasn’t receiving enough light. so I turned the lamp on for it, but it still looked sad.

It was turning brown, so I took it into the kitchen, and sat it in the sunny window. That was too much light at once, so it fried it. What had I learned?

I took it down from the window sill, and sat it on the counter near the light. Eventually it began new growth, but it was slow. After a couple of weeks of doctoring, I went back to the plant store, and bought a new one to try again with my newfound knowledge. The lady who helps me, looked puzzled because she knew I had already purchased one a month before.

She asked about that one, and I said, “I killed it.”

Handing me the new one, she said, “Try it again.”

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This I Know

When I was a little girl, we went to church. Mama was very active in the church, so the whole family went. Mama didn’t give us a choice until we were 18.

There was a song we sang in Sunday school, and you’ve probably heard it. “Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so.” We learned it by heart.

Mama made us go to church, so when I turned 18, I left. Who wants to be ‘made’, or forced to do something? I may have left the church, but Mama knew what she was doing. I still don’t question Gods love for me. His love is the one love I know is true.

When I look over my life, and ponder what has bent me the most, it’s relationships. I haven’t written in-depth about them publicly before, but writing heals.

I don’t write about specific people, or use any names. It’s what the person taught me that will fall to the page. If they read this Blog, and realize it is them being used as an example, my hope would be they feel honored for being worth writing about.

I want to document this season of my life, because I haven’t done that before. Most people keep private journals, which I have a stack of, but keeping it private doesn’t help anyone but me. This life is not all about me, and even that took time to know.

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This I know.

When Givers Collide

My hope is that you are a giver, and you are aligning yourself with other givers. No takers allowed.

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The people we choose to have in our inner most circle should resemble watering cans. My daughter and I are very close, and on days that she feels weak, I am strong. This happens often, or when I feel weak, she is the strong one. On those days we care for one another a little more than normal. We give to the other what they may be lacking in that moment.

Be a giver, and surround yourself with the givers of this world. “I water you, you water me, we never drain each other, we just grow.” It’s like magic indeed.